Fall and chaos

Am I disappointed? Absolutely not!  R on the other hand just takes a deep breath and supports it. Before me, there were no seasonal decorations, or warm fall scents.  Now, I use my bare minimum decorating skills (ideas on Pinterest) to spice up the house a little.  I mean, a few white pumpkins, some brown and white faux flours, with a few leaves in between, maybe a few pumpkin scented candles and voila! It's a country fall theme when you walk into our home.  Luckily, it's easy because our home interior is modern country and it just goes well with this season.

Now that the house is (somewhat) decorated, I'm happy to welcome guests and that's just what we will be doing.  In my opinion, decorating for the seasons and holidays makes a house warmer.  I never really did this until I moved in with R.  It's crazy to even think about, but this is the only house I've ever felt like was a home to me.  In the previous houses I've owned the only 'decorating' I did was a few photos around the house and of course, Christmas.  

During the spring and summer here, I do different faux flowers, candles and colorful things along with photos.  I even told R the other day after I finished placing the last 'Thankful' sign on the entertainment center, 'you know, when I first moved in with you, this was just a house.' He argued that it wasn't just a house.  I elaborated and he just smiled and went back to his TikTok's.  He knew I was right. 

So, the chaos.  

Little J is still grounded, but he has gotten all of his grades to passing finally.  I will admit since putting him on this new medication it's shown with his focus.  However, just looking at his information online, it looks like he's still missing assignments and I'm not sure why.  I go through his backpack daily and pull out everything!  I've already set up a parent teacher conference for this week, so we will see how that goes.  I plan on bringing the list of missing paperwork and getting it all in hand so I can get him caught up completely before the 1st quarter is over.  

As for his father. Same shit, different day, same man I divorced.

On the 20th after he dropped off the kids, he sent me a photo of E's calendar book she needs on the daily.  Apparently, it was left in his car, and I've told him many times not to let them open their bags at all in the vehicles.  He said he would send it.  I text him, the 28th mentioning how the book is a mandatory item used on the daily and he text me a day later saying he sent it.  I got it the 30th, but he sent it after I'd text him.  Shipping labels don't lie, but this man does.  I also had to take responsibility for this with the teachers, because I should have been more on top of what was in their bags after they came back and before he left our property.  It's just frustrating.  

R and I work hard at home with the kids.  We do everything we can to provide emotional, mental and physical stability so they are happy and healthy.  I just want my kids to do well and succeed not just skirt by.  Because of how 'well' J did with little J's homework, I explained to our son he will no longer take his backpack to his fathers during visits, and he will finish everything the Sunday before school.  I want to make sure it's completed properly and checked over.  

As for other chaos, I've decided to give up my primary job.  

I had a woman reach out to me for help and within 20 minutes I was at her home, doing my best to work with her.  I immediately reached out to my boss with photos, and a quick question to help her. This was shortly before noon, and I waited a couple of hours.  By 2:30 pm I called and nothing.  That evening around 9 PM, I noticed my boss posting on social media.  Needless to say, I wasn't happy.  

Long story short, I finally reached out the following evening asking what's going on in my own unhappy manner without being a bitch.  I got an excuse she was having a personal day and didn't see my text messages.  Mind you, this woman is literally attached to her phone, on it taking photos, videos and texting people.  R even agreed and sided with me, because we both know her very well.  

I get it we all have personal fun days, but when I was on vacation in 2024, I was still taking work calls no matter what and with her.  Unfortunately, the customer decided to decline my offer to help but was the sweetest about me being so transparent with her.  The other downside was I lost a customer because my boss's personal day.  I'm sorry, but I know for a fact my text was not missed.  I needed help for a moment, and I even called!  Let me put it this way, when we finished up our texting, she was driving.  She was texting me, driving regarding this customer but couldn't take a moment to do the same the day before?

So, I removed every post on my social media for that primary job and I'm no longer in that line of work.  I hate to say this but, this is all it takes, and I'm done.  Now, I'm looking to go back into an office job.  Here's to stability.